I want Emily to get it.

I haven't written here yet. Dad reckons I won't get it right but I reckon I'm going to get it right. Dad thinks I'm a bit thick but I'm not thick. I  had the idea with Woolworths, not the others so I can't be that thick can I?

Emily is a bit pissed at me because I didn't go to her birthday but I said "Emily, something's come up and I've got to sort it out" and she said "you bitch it's my birthday" and I said "it's important I'll make it up to you though". I was a bit worried about letting Emily down. I worry about a load of stuff but if I piss Emily off anything can happen! Emily you can be a right old bitch you can!! Forgive me hun xxx!

I wanted to make it up to Emily yesterday but I. WAS. DEAD. So I'm making it up for her tonight. I'm taking her up The Barrell. Paying for drinks AND THE ENTRACE. 4 Quid for Katie Marie!

Gavin wants us to talk about stuff but I don't now what to say about it all. It's a bit of a mess. I reckon it's going to be good but we could bugger it up and that would be a bit embarrassing considering we all live here an everybody knows us all and stuff. I am doing this right? I don't know. I'm just writing stuff as it comes into my head. Emily thinks the whole idea is stupid and dad thinks it's stupid. I don't think it's stupid. I kind of like Gavin. I reckon I get what he's doing and maybe me and Mrs W can sort it out because we are thinking about this all in a different way to the others in the town. When I talk to Emily and the other girls I get that they don't get it but I get it and that's because I talk to Gavin and Mrs W all the time. It's always a little bit like that here. Nobody is really that interested in what I'm doing and I think nobody is that interested in what anybody is really doing unless it's good gossip for down the Lord Nelson or at the Happy Apple.. That's not right is it?

I want Emily and the others to get it. I feel that I'm loosing them if they don't get it.

Better get a move on. Meeting Emily in ten minutes. Just wanted to say something. Hope this was good.

Crystalxxx